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released May 11, 2010

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Track Name: Hey Girl
HEY GIRL
It’s so hard to break through my well-trained pride
So I don’t even know you, God knows I tried

You speak your mind
Wish I could be a bit more like your kind
I think inside
Why can’t I leave all this behind

(CHORUS)
Hey girl, you were my only friend
I have adored you from afar and now you’re tearing me apart
Hey girl, you were my only love
I’ve stayed a shadow in this game just to watch you slip away

It’s so hard to see you with my naked sight
So I can’t even dream you, God knows I tried

You live, you strive
Wish I could be a bit more like your kind
I die inside
Why can’t I leave all this behind

(CHORUS)

It’s so hard for me to prove
What I’m feeling’s really true
So I fade away every night and day
Why can’t I break through?

(CHORUS)
Track Name: Godless
GODLESS
So what if I couldn’t believe anything I couldn’t see
At least I see with open eyes
I know I could’ve had it all if I could only walk a semi-jagged line

It’s hard not to feel when you see in colors
I tried hard to find but I found nothing, and nothing kills the mind

So I keep…

(CHORUS)
Looking for a distraction to calm me down
Searching for another flesh to hold me down
I’m so restless
I know it’s pointless

Wish I could take a pill to make me whole
Wish I could say a prayer to save my soul
But I’m hopeless
Because I’m Godless

I know I still want to believe in reasons for all of these things
But the number’s on the cynics’ side
Wish I could lose myself
Then I can join the rest and drink the sacred wine

It’s hard to concede when you feel in colors
I tried hard to find but I found nothing, and nothing kills the mind

So I’m…
(CHORUS)

Would you stare me down into the light before it’s all over…
Track Name: Friend
FRIEND
Cried to wake another friend and found a heart to mend
That could feed a million voices never heard before

I’d break another bone in two just to be inside of you
And my heart will heal in time if you just hurt it more

Stay the same and I’ll belong to you
Stay the same and I’ll belong to you

(CHORUS)
I’m not afraid
(I’ll) work it out
with the sadness that consumes my nights

Let it go
Shut it out
It’s the only thing you’ll never find

Smile another smile for me
And take the air I breathe
And we can plot a tryst under the sanguine skies

Break another promise thread
And drain my emptiness
One day I’ll drown that part of me in my sea of lies

Stay the same and I’ll belong to you
Stay the same and I’ll belong to you

(CHORUS)
Track Name: Let It Go
LET IT GO
There she goes
She recognizes my face
But there are so many faces she has to greet
She’s off to find some brand new adventure
But nothing I haven’t already seen

Her eyes, they don’t lie like I do
And I’ve been lying for too long
Her mind drifts like I do
And I’ve been drifting for too long

Well there she goes, just passing through
She doesn’t need to yet change her pace
I can wait, but what’s the use
She still has so many hearts to break

(CHORUS)
Guess I’ll have to let it go
Guess I’ll have to look away
Guess I’ll have to be the one who would never know
What it’s like to make her wanna stay

There she goes, browsing through her selections
But there are still so many more to try
It’s not her time to want to find a single obsession
Even if it means to treat her right

Well there she goes, just passing through
She doesn’t need to yet change her pace
I can wait, but what’s the use
She still has so many hearts to break

(CHORUS)
Track Name: Burst
BURST
Where’s the future
I’ve seen your eyes
Once a fable
You’re back in style

While you fated all your children drowned within
And behind those walls there’s doubt inside

(CHORUS)
You are the man
God sing a song
God save us all
Or just watch us fall

You are the man
God sing a song
God do your worst
Laugh ‘till you burst

Where’s the savior
Have we switched sides
All’s forgotten
The price of pride

While you hide, your modern saints are marching in
To cleanse the minds of those with doubt inside

(CHORUS)

And the roaches dream of signs
Too late to read between the lines

(CHORUS)
Track Name: Home
HOME
I know you wear a perfect countenance
I know you think you’ve camouflaged the void you feel inside
You haven’t changed a bit
You haven’t changed a bit
You can fake a smile, but can’t deceive your mind

I know you think you’ve lost your innocence
I know you think your life has turned into a compromise
But you haven’t lost your faith
You haven’t lost your faith
You can build a wall, but can’t change what’s inside

(CHORUS)
And for whatever reason
I haven’t sung that song
I haven’t sung that song
You thought fate never learned your name
But you never tried to find
What was always with you all this time

I know you dwell in past and future tense
I know you think with each mistake, you dug a deeper hole
But nothing’s so black and white
Nothing’s so black and white
When you break you fall, but it’s just you after all

(CHORUS)

You never learned to look beyond the soaring light
But it’s not too late to change

(CHORUS)
Track Name: A Love Song
A LOVE SONG
I would gladly stand in front of a running train
Wouldn’t hesitate to jump out of a flying plane
I’d slowly walk through a burning flame
Run around stark naked without feeling shame

I’d do all of this and much more for you
In fact there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for you

But I wouldn’t write you a love song
I wouldn’t write you a love song

I would cut off all my limbs if you wanted me to
Put a bullet through my head if you wanted me to
I’d tear out my own heart if you wanted me to
Sell my soul to the devil if you wanted me to

I’d do all of this and much more for you
In fact there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for you

But I wouldn’t write you a love song
I wouldn’t write you a love song

Anyone can write a love song,
Some can probably sing it too
I’d rather be there when you need me
I’d rather hold you when you want me
I’d rather love you ‘till you dump me

But I’d never write you a love song
I’d never write you a love song
No I won’t write you a love song
I wouldn’t write you a love song
Track Name: Silence
SILENCE
There’s a basic principal he’s been taught to embrace
And he can’t seem to shake it off
It’s a struggle trying to always rise above

And the eyes that stare back from the mirror
They try to shine light through
But when he sees the light, he knows not what it’s for

(CHORUS)
He keeps his silence; he’s his own counsel
He won’t break for anyone
He walks in circles, bides his time

He keeps his silence, but he’s no martyr
He can’t hold it in anymore
His scars may grow still, but he won’t lie still anymore

We’re always seeking fodder and he’s an obvious choice
‘Cause kindness is strength in his mind
He finds it strange but he’s been a stranger all of his life

And the sun can’t imagine the freeze around her
But she shines through, says he can too
But when he sees the light he knows not what it’s for

(Chorus)

He keeps his silence, he’s his own’ counsel
He won’t break for anyone
He walks in circles, bides his time

He keeps his silence, but he’s no martyr
He can’t take it anymore
His scars may grow still, but he won’t lie still anymore
Track Name: Sweet Sound of Misery
SWEET SOUND OF MISERY
He’s forgotten what it’s like to laugh
Often wonders if he ever knew
But his memory’s as clear as photograph
Wouldn’t let him forget the things he wants to

Some days are better than other days
When life seems to keep him preoccupied
Some days, he feels less than other days
If those days would last, he would be satisfied

(He) doesn’t like to feel the fragments of the past
Each moment he prays would not be his last

(CHORUS)

And he swore nothing else would bring him down
And he hopes someday he wouldn’t hear the sound
“The sweet sound of misery,” he says
“knows no other like it knows me”

He’s familiar with all shades of loss
Served his time the way he was supposed to

Some days are better than other days
When life seems to keep him preoccupied
Some days, he feels less than other days
If those days would last, he would be satisfied

He doesn’t like to feel the fragments of the past
Each moment he prays would not be his last

(CHORUS)
Track Name: Maybe
MAYBE
Nobody told me that it would be so hard
To love somebody with such a cold, cold heart

You went away
And I haven’t slept since
Since you’ve been gone
I haven’t eaten anything

(CHORUS)
Maybe I will die
I cannot cry no more
Maybe I will die
I cannot love no more

Somebody should’ve told me that life is much too hard
When you love somebody with all your heart

You went away
And I haven’t said a word since
Since you’ve been gone
I haven’t done a goddamned thing

(CHORUS)

Maybe I will… no
Maybe I will… oh

You went away
And I haven’t slept since
Since you’ve been gone
I haven’t done a goddamned thing

Maybe I will die
I cannot cry no more
Maybe I will die
I cannot live no more
Track Name: Shadow
SHADOW
You say you wanted everything else
What you had was never enough to show
I know it’s not a design you conceived
But you learned to view it as your own

You’ve got to be easier on yourself
To break out of this mold
And no one can make you understand
(That) time passes for all

(CHORUS)
You move, won’t settle
You leave the cats in the cradle
So smooth, but fatal
Never seen hands so idle
No, so
You’re such a hard act to follow
Don’t lose it, or fold it
Better hang onto your shadow

You say they promised the end of the world
Before you had the time to make your stand
I know your fortunes had you believe
It’s better not to make than make it plain

You’ve got to expect to be much less
To learn how to be whole
But nothing can make you understand
(That) time passes for all

(CHORUS)

Just another superstar
Just another superstar

You’ve got to expect to be much less
To learn how to be whole
But nothing can make you understand
(That) time passes for all

(CHORUS)
Track Name: Made
MADE
You got a brand new shirt that you picked out yourself
A pocket full of change and a cell in your hand
The half pack of cigarette will last you the day
And no one’s gonna tell you when to get out of bed

Security is nothing but a state of your mind
Everything that causes harm, you mostly do to yourself
So wave a flag, honk your horn, and call it a day
‘Cause no one’s gonna bomb you while you sleep in your bed

Saved by the times, Saved by the times

(CHORUS)
You got it made
(It’s not a question)
You got it made
(You’re gonna hang ‘till it’s over)
You got it made
(You got me walking and talking about it)
You got it made

So your pets let you feel like a responsible man
And no one’s gonna ask you to give anything up
You think you got a crush on a girl from the bar
But either way you got a gigabyte of porn for fun

You got a smooth way of talkin’ and walkin’
Maybe someday you can even run for President
So let the top down and cruise some more
At least today is not the day that you can drown from the sun

Saved by the times, Saved by the times

(CHORUS)